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Chapter 1 - THE MAN ON THE STAIRCASE

The first thing Mrs. Fairbanks told her was to be invisible.

Punctual. Quiet. You do not speak to Mr. Whitmore unless he speaks to you. You do not go past the green baize door into the west wing, not ever, not for any reason. The housekeeper's hands were folded at her waist like a closed book. You are here to clean.

Yes, ma'am, said Sophie Marchetti.

She had been hired for six weeks, four hundred dollars a week, cash. It was the most money she had ever been offered for anything, and she had taken it without asking why the last three girls had quit.

Ravenswood sat above the Hudson on two hundred acres of gray stone and old oak, a house built by people who expected to be obeyed. Sophie had grown up in a two-bedroom apartment over a laundromat in Yonkers, and she walked through the front door that first morning with her hands in her pockets so she would not touch anything.

She learned the house the way she had once learned a body in nursing school — corridor by corridor, room by room, listening for what was wrong.

She heard it on the third day.

Alexander Whitmore was in the library with four men, and she was dusting the hall outside with the door open, which was allowed, because the library was not the west wing. The men had folders. One of them was older, silver-haired, in a sweater vest, with the warm, unhurried voice of a man who had never once been interrupted in his life.

Just sign today, son, the older man said. I'm trying to take the pressure off you.

I said I'll read it, Alexander said.

Sophie had been in the house long enough to know that voice. It was the voice of someone who had been saying I'll read it for a very long time.

She glanced in. Alexander Whitmore was thirty-four years old and looked like a man being slowly erased. He had the shoulders of an athlete and the gray face of a hospital corridor. His hair was thick, but there was something wrong at the temples, a thinning she did not want to name. And his right hand, resting on the arm of the chair, was trembling — not the fine tremor of nerves, but a slow, heavy unsteadiness, like a table with a short leg.

He picked up a pen. He set it down. He picked it up again.

Sir, Sophie said, how much longer?

Every head in the room turned.

The older man — Richard Whitmore, she would learn, the uncle, the vice-chairman — looked at her the way you look at a chair that has spoken. Excuse me?

Your meeting, Sophie said, keeping her eyes down. I have the hall to do and I don't want to interrupt twice.

It's fine, Alexander said. He was looking at her, and there was something in his face that had not been there a moment before — not gratitude, exactly. Recognition. We're finished. Everyone out.

They went. Richard Whitmore was last, and he stopped in the doorway and looked at Sophie for a long, mild moment, and smiled, and left.

She went back to the dusting. Her hands were not quite steady.

That night she could not stop thinking about the tremor.

It was not stress. She had watched her mother's hands for two years, through every stage of an illness that had eaten her slowly and left a folder of bills behind. Stress shook a hand in small quick waves. This was different. This was a hand that could not feel the pen.

The next morning she brought a glass of water to the library and set it on the table beside him without being asked.

Alexander looked at it, then at her. I didn't ask for that.

No, sir.

Then why?

You asked for one yesterday, Sophie said. Nobody brought it. You didn't ask again.

He stared at her for a long moment. Then he picked up the glass, and his fingers slipped on it once before they closed, and he drank, and she saw his throat work, and she saw something else — a small dark bruise on the back of his hand that had no business being there, and a thin silver line of a scar on his wrist that she did not understand yet.

What's your name?

Sophie.

Sophie. He set the glass down. Everyone in this house wants something from me, Sophie. What do you want?

She thought about the answer. She could have said the money. It was true.

I want to do my job and go home, she said.

He laughed — a short, cracked sound, like a hinge. You'll be the first.

She was almost at the door when he spoke again, quieter.

Sophie. She turned. He was not looking at her; he was looking at his own hands, spread flat on his knees, as though they belonged to someone else. Do you know what it's like to lose the feeling in your hands?

Her stomach dropped.

No, sir, she said, because she was not supposed to speak to him, because she was supposed to be invisible, because everything in her that had learned to keep her head down was screaming at her to keep her head down.

Do you want to know what it's like? he said. It's like holding a photograph of your own life. You can see it. You just can't touch it.

She went back to the dusting. She counted the strokes of the cloth on the wainscoting to keep her hands busy, and she counted them wrong, twice.

At two in the morning, she came down the back stairs to get a glass of milk, because she could not sleep, because the back stairs were allowed and the front stairs were not, and she found him on the landing of the grand staircase, sitting on the third step from the top with his back against the banister and his shirt collar open, breathing as though he had run a mile.

He looked up. His face was the color of wet paper.

Don't, he said, and it came out in pieces. Don't call anyone. Don't let Richard decide.

Sophie crouched in front of him and took his wrist in her hand, two fingers on the pulse, the way she had been taught in a classroom she had left after two years and never finished, and she felt the beat skittering under her fingers like something frightened.

Mr. Whitmore, she said. Can you feel my hand?

No, said Alexander Whitmore. I can't feel anything at all.

And somewhere above them in the dark house, a door opened.

Sophie looked up.

At the top of the staircase stood Mrs. Fairbanks.

She wore a dark dressing gown and held a telephone against her ear.

For one suspended moment, nobody moved.

Then the housekeeper said, “Yes, Doctor. He's having another episode.”

Alexander's fingers closed weakly around Sophie's wrist.

“No hospital,” he whispered.

Mrs. Fairbanks descended two steps.

“Miss Marchetti, step away from Mr. Whitmore.”

Sophie didn't move.

Alexander's pulse was irregular. His breathing had become shallow, and sweat stood across his forehead.

Whatever was happening, he needed emergency medical care.

“Call an ambulance,” Sophie said.

Mrs. Fairbanks stopped.

“His physician is coming.”

“An ambulance. Now.”

“You are overstepping.”

“Then fire me tomorrow.”

Sophie pulled out her phone.

Mrs. Fairbanks's expression changed.

“Miss Marchetti—”

Sophie was already speaking to the emergency dispatcher.

She gave the address, described Alexander's symptoms, and followed the dispatcher's instructions.

Alexander tried to speak.

Only one word emerged.

“Richard.”

Sophie leaned closer.

“What about Richard?”

His eyes moved toward the housekeeper.

Then toward the upper hallway.

“Medicine.”

Mrs. Fairbanks's face went blank.

“Mr. Whitmore is confused.”

Sophie looked at her.

“Then a doctor at the hospital can determine why.”

The housekeeper's telephone slipped slightly in her hand.

And from somewhere beyond the green baize door, a man's voice called:

“Is it finished?”

Sophie felt Alexander's grip tighten.

May you like

Not enough to hurt.

Just enough to tell her he had heard it too.

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